Hello to all.

My name is Gary, I am just a regular guy on this big blue ball like the rest of us. I was in my life dealt a difficult hand to deal with. My family at first did not know God as a Savior or father nor cared for God whom you will see me refer to allot as Father, to me He is more than a God but really is my father; took a while to learn that.
My birth father or my real dad had a problem with alcohol so in turn we all had a problem with alcohol. Thank goodness my mom had her head on straight and tried her best with what she knew to keep some peace in out home. You will at times maybe read where we had a very difficult time in our home but don't blame my mom, the Bible says in 1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: so before you go looking to say someone is wrong remember we are at war. We as Christians are in the fight for our lives and satan works very hard to mess up your life, my life, our lives in general.
I love my Mom and my step-father very much, before they knew God as they do now we all had a hard road to go down. It's tough in life trying to leave a life of Sin and turn towards God, Christ and a Christian way. No one said it would be easy, there are no promises in the Bible that say, Thus saith the lord thy life shall be a bed of finely crafted roses. I'm sorry if your version of life that has been given to you was told with a disclaimer, (after this portion of your life at a given age you will no longer have problems) end of disclaimer. No life isn't always awful, and for the most part for most people it is great and it can be Rosey but for some people, people like me life for many years had a dark side, nothing I created but something I had to endure for many years due to the lack of God in my house. Oh wait a minute, or as my youngest daughter would say "snap" I didn't blame my mom or my dad, no you see they went thru the same thing as I did but on a different level and in a different time. No it's not their fault that I saw the things I saw, it's not their fault I watched my dad beat on mom. What it is folks is this, is darkness a thing, No. Darkness is a result of the lack of light, so bad is the lack of good or the result of life without God. I know from what I speak, I have the Moccasins you should walk in, they were mine. I walked the mile and then some. I know what it is like to have to run to save your rear from a drunk and at times I did. Mostly when mom was at work and my step dad would get cranked up from cocaine and speed and alcohol. (Not my current step-father whom I love dearly but my moms previous leach) He was a mess and I was so small he thought it fun to push me around, I was so skinny as a kid I had to run around in the shower to get wet.
Well I'm gonna cut it off now, I'm tired only got about 4 hours sleep since this morning at 0530 hrs. when I had to get up for work, so in the last 40 hrs. I've slept 4 hrs. woo hoo. Seriously folks, I dealt with allot of junk and had allot of bad things happen to me not from my doing but things I had to endure that I didn't create. I still have my moments that get to me and in my line of work things cause those memories to come flooding back in like a tidal wave. I give you a for instance then I gotta go.
I was on patrol on day shift here in Mayberry and got a call to go to residence for indecent text messages. The texter was at a motel, the textie was at her home, here's how it went down. I read the text message and it said bring me 5 crack rocks (cocaine pebbles in a smokeable form) to room !@# and you can have what ever you want, but it was written out in it's proper slang form. I told the lady I was going to see if there was indeed someone there and if I could have them stop. Low and behold the lady in the motel room was a person whom I knew, (talk about an ordained meeting from God, see God is faithful) she liked to have died right there or DRT, dead right there. She let me in she sat down and I told her what I knew and of course she denied it, even a blind Squirrel can find a nut sometimes. I talked to her for a bit, didn't see any drugs there so since I knew her I started to leave, as I did she stood up and gave me that look of what do I do, I hugged her real hard and said pray, seek God and fight, fight for your life. Here was her problem, she had to endure the results of a problem she created years earlier, the results of sin or the absents of God. God didn't create that problem she did and she paid for it and still pays for it. I saw here Saturday morning, won't say where but I went to her hugged her real hard and we smiled at each other and she said I'm ok, she is in classes, maybe NA or the like. I'm proud of her and I told her so too. When is th last time you hugged a person fighting an addiction and said seek God, pray hard and you will find him cause he careth for you... Remember Christ stretched out his arms and died, while up there he said hey look, I love you thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssss much. God bless all yall.
Love ya and Good night. Garwayne (Disclaimer, forgive typo's it's 0140 hrs.)
Verse for the day I guess or what ever, 1 Samuel 7:3And Samuel spake unto all the house of Israel, saying, If ye do return unto the LORD with all your hearts, then put away the strange gods and Ashtaroth from among you, and prepare your hearts unto the LORD, and serve him only: and he will deliver you out of the hand of the Philistines (or the world as it were). Bye Bye